Jaded

Hope the 20 or so people who viewed my 3D preview video enjoyed it before I noticed I wasn't allowed to blog about it! I broke something trying to make this shitty template a bit better shortly afterwards and have only just got round to fixing it.


*warning* strange ramble incoming.

Anyway in FM terms, i'm 'jaded and in need of a rest' at the moment. After winning run #1 of the EFA qualifying only losing 2 games and drawing 2 I was feeling pretty pleased with myself. Then we had a couple of days waiting for the league to reset and out of nowhere I nearly quit, I just suddenly didn't want to play the game any more.

I decided to push on and I picked my first game at home to a team I had beat 5-0 just two days prior. Of course, I lost. I lost a couple of cup games and the last few games in qualifying #1 didn't end in spectacular fashion I appear to be in a fairly dead qualifying league this time round and despite only playing 1 game i'm pretty certain i'm going to be in horrific form now. Funny thing is the team I duked it out with last time round has also played 3 and lost all 3 !

I'm just waiting for AI already but there's no easy looking games coming up so this could suddenly turn into a mid table finish.

I think it actually takes a massive amount of effort to actually do well on the game. I had to ensure that not a single game went to AI otherwise I would lose, I went to painstaking to make sure no one could play my AI and rigidly stuck to my plans and instructions. Even when doing this I know that something totally out of my control like bad form could instantly destroy the days of work I have put in.

I think it just got to the point where I thought, what the hell am I doing. I'm not sure the reward is worth the effort. I was sitting in some important meeting at work the other day and I was far more occupied with whether I should put one of my youths in at right back than what was going on.

You only sing when your winning as the song goes, but it's true. If I don't put the effort in then I wont win, and then I wont want to play then either! As you are probably aware by now, I really don't take losing especially well. Plus with all the bollocks I spout here and there I kind of feel pressured do actually do well to somehow validate the stuff i'm moaning about.

The other thing which is getting me down a bit is the way people are making so much money from transfers. Pato (100k wage) and Aguero (135k wage) signed for the same team who has a wage bill totalling £281k and just after Aguero signed he was still considered rich. I don't have anything against the managers but I just simply don't understand how certain managers are getting such excessive fees, consistently, for poor players. To be fair, this guy is still losing because he's playing 442 ;)

I'm just not really seeing how I can put together a great team, even with attaining max reputation so far in all qualifiers because i'm so far behind certain teams financially. Then again, i've never had what you can call a 'great' team in most people's eyes. hmpf